I’m too hopped up on Christmas cheer, everybody. I started singing carols to a spider in my shower to grow its Grinch heart and convince it not to bite me. 

I have to throw this out to some kind of open space because its trapped in my head:

Today is my friend’s funeral service and the reality of his death is hitting me all at once. At the same time, my dogs been throwing up all day, some of it with blood in it. My dad has already consulted the vet who says to monitor him and that its probably an upset stomach thing. Still I feel like he’s suffering.

So its the reality of one situation colliding with the reality of another thats wreaking havoc on me right now and I feel so helpless and alone.